old post- new heart.

This was a note I wrote when I first moved to Denton. I thought it would be nice to share it again. It's a good thing for me to read it every now and then and remind myself that this life is not my own.


I have officially lived in Denton over a month now and I cannot even find the words to express the feelings God has given me since I have moved here. The most important thing God has shown me is: what it is to love passionately and how to love passionately. 

There are so many times we go through life and we think: “ I love this person so much; I love them with all of my heart; they are my everything” and what we think is a passionate love, is really not passionate at all. We tell people, yea, I love you with all of my heart, but what about our souls? Minds? Or even our strengths? How often is it that we tell people, I love you with all of my heart, soul, mind and strength? Not very often, I would assume. The point is, God commands us to love Him with all our heart, soul, mind and strength because He knew, for us as humans to love someone with ALL of that, would have to mean it would be a passionate love. God created us, as His children, to glorify Him in everything we do- which when you think about it, all comes down to one action: love.

Now God also commands us not to have any other gods before Him. Which growing up I also thought of “gods” as another religion. Then as I got older, I began thinking it was t.v. and the internet but now it is so clear that anything keeping you away from loving God passionately is, in fact, a “god.” That doesn’t just mean watching t.v. for 5 hours a day, but it could also be church, your Christian friends—something that you think is important for your Christian life could quickly affect your Christian walk with the Lord, but most importantly,”we” easily place ourselves and selfish desires before God, making us our “god” before God. (if that makes any sense) When I first moved to denton, I had so many mixed emotions as to why I was here, and why I came when I did, but mostly I thought, out of all places I could’ve gone, why denton? Growing up I also told myself, I will never end up in the Dallas area, yet, I’m here. I also questioned a lot on whether or not I made the right choice, wondering if God was going to use me and if I would ever have the same opportunities here as I had back home. Then I just realized how everything quickly became about me. Although everything I was thinking was pretty legit, my heart clearly wasn’t in the right place. I was worrying instead of trusting. Forgetting God has a plan with every step that I made and because of that I was trying to make up my own.

God created me to love Him. If I’m in Denton, texas- Brownsville,texas- or somewhere in South America one day, wherever I am, God created me to love Him with all of MY heart, MY soul, MY mind, and MY strength, Wherever He places me, I am to love Him passionately and to believe that even when I go through some dark areas in life, He is my light, to guide me in His path for my life. Reminding myself that I’m living, only by the grace of God, and where He leads me, I will go. I will trust Him with HIS plan and love him passionately throughout it. PRAISE GOD